He is there!

Yesterday, 2 March 10, he showed me He is there. Only once again. If I did not believe He is there when he performed the money miracle in my life in the June of 2005, and several other times in the last ten years, He showed me again, He is there.

In one moment of selflessness (in a life filled with selfish materialism), I dedicated all my desires at his feet, asked him to accept everything and give me what I deserve. For one moment, instead of thinking of myself, I thought about others and asked him to give those people I love a good day. And He answered. When He did, He made me feel on top of the world. Thank you Baba.

Today, I felt it again. When after 2 months of struggle I decided to stop kicking and screaming and be calm and composed and I only encountered further obstacles, I asked him why this was happening to me? Why was He taking me through this circuitous route to the same place that I orignally wanted to go? His answer to me was two-fold. A) I was not sure what I wanted and B) Whatever I wanted I had to strive hard to get it.

I should have been disappointed. My wife is actually furious. But I am calm instead. I am composed. I feel good inside and I am sitting and writing this piece. I have to thank him for the maturity he has provided me. He has removed all anxiety from my mind and made me feel confident. I have miles to go before I sleep, but I feel confident. He is there.

Baba, be with me and my son and my dear wife. Be with him, whom I think is bad today, only becuase he is inflicting pain on me because he himself is pained. Be with those who worry what will become of their lives because of all their past deeds. Be with those I love and protect them.

Thank you Baba for everything you have given me in this life. Give me the energy to strive harder tomorrow than what I did today. Give me the insight to enjoy every minute of life, accepting that whatever happens, happens for a reason and that is only for my own good.

Glory be to Sai. Peace be to all.